Stephen “tWitch” Boss Ex-Wife Allison Holker Talks Dating Again After His Suicide!
Allison Holker is not giving up on love after losing her late husband, Stephen “tWitch” Boss, to suicide. The widow opened up about dating again during a recent podcast interview.
“It was very hard for me to learn to like myself again and to learn to love myself again,” Allison said on the most recent episode of “The Niall Files” podcast. “And then also, could I like someone else again? Could I love someone else again while I still like someone and love someone else?”
She declared — “It’s a very complex situation I’ve found myself in.”
Allison’s remarks came one year after her husband’s death. She revealed that she remained hopeful that she would find love again.
“At the end of the day, I love life. So would I shy away from it? No. Am I looking for it? I don’t know,” the “So You Think You Can Dance” alum admitted. “I am just such a lover of life and experience and adventure and I still find that the world is such a beautiful place, and there’s so much to be experienced. So to what kind of capacity, what that looks like, I don’t know.”
“Life and love is just something I’ve always believed in,” she added.
Allison explained that it had been challenging to move forward with her life, despite her positive attitude.
“I had so many dark spaces I was in, that I had to be in for so many reasons, and I had to work through all these different processes of all these different things, but I have,” she said. “I’ve worked through them and we’ll see what happens.”
Allison shared three children with her late husband, Weslie, 15, Maddox, 7, and 3-year-old, Zaia.
Allison spoke to ET about the difficult ordeal, revealing that she didn’t dance for months following the family tragedy.
“I didn’t dance for I wanna say almost five months after [Boss’ death]. It took me a long time,” Allison told the outlet. “That was something that was just so close, obviously, to each and every memory I really share with Stephen. It kind of crosses the area of our life individually, and especially together. There was parts of me that didn’t know if I was ready. It almost felt like, maybe if I dance for the first time it’s my final release of him. I don’t know if I was trying to hold onto him or if I was scared to share that with him. I’m not sure which one it was, but it took me a very long time to do it.”
She continued — “I will say, I called my friend Brittany Russell and I was like, ‘I think I’m ready to dance,’ but I didn’t want to do it alone. I was too scared to do it alone. I called her… She came over and we danced.”
Allison shared that dancing again helped her to reconnect to herself and her late life partner.
“I actually felt so connected to Stephen. I felt so connected to myself and to him and my home,” she said. “… It just took me a second to get there, but… it, for me, was healing. It gave me a sense of remembering who I am and who I still can be.”
Allison’s new book, “Keep Dancing Through: A Boss Family Groove,” was released earlier this month.
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