In the clip below, Mariah Brown talks about private details from her life with her fiancée, Audrey Kriss.
“In my teens, I felt very devoted to the church that I was raised in,” Brown, 24, begins. “I wanted to live polygamy. I think it was a way to protect myself from, like, coming out to myself, really.”
She tearfully continues, “I’m very grateful [for] the way my parents raised me. I’m very grateful for my upbringing and at the same time, it was very painful. And it was really hard for me to, like, be gay and be religous at the same time.”
Mariah admits that she’s often “considered many times” how different her life would be if her family hadn’t moved to Las Vegas. “My guess is what would happen is I would get married to a man with a few wives, be there a few years, hate my life and eventually leave,” she says.
Mariah Brown talks coming out to her father, Kody Brown, and his reaction.
“Right after I came out, my dad, he told me this before but he reiterated to me that he had a conversation with God many years ago and God said, ‘You love, I judge,’” she recalls. “And so all dad did was love. That’s all he does with everybody.”
Mariah continues, “Religious institutions are spaces where there’s rules and if you are not following these rules or guidelines, you can feel pretty marginalized and I did feel that way with my church. But with my family, I found so much comfort and they love me anyway. They love me and they love Audrey, and they love our love.”
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Since sharing her truth, Mariah went on to propose to Audrey at the Women’s March in Washington, D.C.
Sister Wives airs Sundays, at 10:00 p.m. ET, on TLC.